Victoria Roder - Author
Lying in the dark shadows of my bedroom, I startled at a slamming sound. I felt
every hair on my arms crystallize as I grappled under the pillow for my Ruger
In an attempt to become undetectable in the darkness, I inhaled the slowest
breaths possible without passing out. I felt convinced someone observed, perhaps studied
To ease my mind, I proceeded through my duplex with stealth-like movements, as
if I were responding to an armed intruder call. Keeping my wrists crossed with my Ruger
With a predator like approach toward the bathroom, I noticed the shower curtain
stirring. My pulse throbbed in my esophagus threatening to cut off my air supply.
Creeping into my nineteen fifties Pepto Bismol pink bathroom, with a trembling hand I
grasped and jerked open the curtain. The sound of the rings scraping against the rod
made a deafening screech.
Still nothing.
Succumbing to mental exhaustion I leaned my head against the bathroom door.
“Shit.” In the silence, the sound of my own voice startled me. I can’t keep going
like this night after night.
A slamming noise vibrated between the duplexes. Sprinting to the kitchen with
my Ruger leading the way, I pressed my face against the kitchen window and cupped my
hands around my eyes to peer into the driveway. I surveyed the driveway I shared with
my neighbor Mark, but I couldn’t detect his car. If he’s gone, where is the noise coming
from? I thought of one place I hadn’t checked. With dread and trepidation, the reality
of entering the moldy, reeking storage area made my stomach contents feel like curdled
cottage cheese. With my desire to find the source of the noises superseding my fear of
dark, damp spaces, I tucked the Ruger in the waistband of my drawstring sleep pants.
Out of my collection of guns I have stashed around my apartment I choose my
Browning A-Bolt Stainless Stalker rifle from behind the mop in the broom closet. I
Cocking the rifle I warned, “Stop, I have a gun.”
“Calm down, Bolt. It’s just me.” Lance Kestler ran his hand through his thick
trigger, “Did you just come out of my storage area?”
“No, I got out of my car and walked toward your door.” Kestler placed his hands
on his trim waist line. “How come you never wear your hair down during the day?”
Kestler shrugged his broad shoulders covered by a black Fieora suit and wobbled
Headlights from a passing car shined toward me and I slid the rifle behind my
“Well, I remember you don’t sleep much at night so I assumed you’d still be up.
I blew out a breath in frustration. How did I ever get involved with this guy in the
first place? “Get off it, Kestler. You’ve been drinking. What do you want?”
“Aren’t you gonna invite me in?” He winked in his typical cocky manner. “It’s
I couldn’t help but roll my eyes and shake my head back and forth. “Are you
“Look, I just want to apologize for how things have been going between us
“Apologize?” I could feel the rifle dig into my hand as I tightened my grip on it.
“You can’t even talk in complete sentences. How come you only show up and want to
talk when you’re drunk?”
Kestler advanced two steps toward me. “What’s wrong with you? I’m trying
to rekindle a civil relationship between us, and you show up acting like Annie Oakley
the gunslinger.”
“You don’t do apologies, or favors without an ulterior motive.” I pointed the rifle
towards him. “What the hell do you want? Why don’t you just go home?”
“What? You’re gonna shoot me? ” Lance threw up his hands, pretending to
surrender, and laughed.
His humor was lost on me. I wanted Kestler off my property and wanted him to
know I meant business. “You’ve been drinking, and you’re trespassing. I believed you
“You’d miss.”
My finger itched to pull the trigger. “Don’t you remember my target scores
where always better than yours.”
Lance winked at me. “That’s cause I was distracted by your cute ass.”
I rolled my eyes. “You are an ass.”
“I’m done with trying to be nice to you.”
“When did you start?”
“Screw you.” He turned to stomp back toward his car.
I lowered the rifle and called out, “Kestler, you’ve been drinking. Should I call
you a cab? Do you need a cab?”
I heard him open his car door. As I walked backward up the three steps to the
front door, it didn’t take detective skills to realize he didn’t have the ability nor the
Feeling secure, I returned the rifle to its spot behind the mop in my closet. Feelings of
My gray and white cat, Baby, appeared from her hiding place and jumped on
the kitchen table and rubbed noses with me. “Why do I let him get to me like that,
Retreating to my bedroom with Baby in my arms, I released her and retrieved my
Blackhawk from the back of my sleep pants and placed it under the pillow and crawled